Tarry not longer

Dear FY,

While I was trapped in the state of confusion, I lost you. You know that I am a person with few words. I don't often say what is on my mind and even if I do, it usually doesn't come out quite right. I opened my mouth a few times to speak that night but ended up only spewing silence. Tried to force my tears back without much success, I accepted your words.

"You need to make a choice"

You were right that night. It was a race against the clock. CHOOSE!

I procrastinated. Hence, this post.

Bii found the courage to tell me his tale last night. Part of me was really glad he found someone to share his life with. Couldn't say my heart is in good shape either. I had arguably the most meaningful time with him. It's only fair to blame myself for being indecisive. My selfishness had let bii slipped with his new found love. 

One day can bend your life. And that night seemed to bend mine inexorably downward.

There are things that people will do even though they know it's pointless. No matter how pointless it is, they must do it in order to collect themselves. My impaired judgement was the reason I began to wilt away, which was tearing me up inside. I was desperate to turn to the help of alcohol but I couldn't find one. I tried not to think but that was proving difficult. 

Dear bii,

Please do not feel guilty. I remember thinking you were such an interesting guy. It's true that I am fighting hard to catch my breath now, you on the other hand must had taken a lot of courage to tell me. No matter how much I hate to lose you, the idea of seeing you happy was enough incentive. The choice is yours. I believe this love will stand the test of time. May your times be as good as ours and your love last much longer.

Our beautiful memories resonate endlessly at the back of my head.

Love,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

KL Come Over

Dear FY,

We had not met for 2 solid months and I miss him so much. He had been very cold in the car, in the mall and during meals. When the nights fell he finally turned to a nice and gentle wolf. Sorry mum we were too loud "snoring" haha. 

Though one said to send him away with a smile, my heart ached with reluctance. I felt exactly the same when I sent you home, FY. Happy moments do not last long and they end in tears. Yes, FY I am sure you know I cry easily.

Again I am really thankful for his precious time. Work has been stressful and his presence was a quick remedy. Thank you for coming, bii.

Yours truly,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

24 hours

Dear bii,

It has been 24 hours since we last talked. I have not hear from you after that. And this is the first time we are separated this long.

Sadly, I have just realized I cannot fall asleep without you saying goodnight.

Hope I am not overthinking (I can be a drama queen, if you have not know yet). I know you are safe. Probably that place you travel has no connection. STAY POSITIVE!!!

From,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Post updated with LittleS

Project 3.55 - success

Dear bii,

The visit was certainly unplanned and it was truly amazing you welcome my visit without fuss. Thanks for your hospitality. I really appreciate your effort to drive me around and "eat me out" for the days we were together.

Your bites.

Your scent.

Your smile.

Your touch.

It's really great I found my ways to remember all these when we are miles apart from each another.

(pictures can be found here)

Thanks bii.

From,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot