Close the curtain of 2015

Let's take a break from Project 55.5.

One day you'll leave this world behind

So live a life you will remember.

Go venture far beyond these shores

Don't forsake this life of yours.

It's amazing how a song which did not mean anything originally, has now been hummed continuously. And then from whisper I begin to sing aloud. Alone. With confidence. 'Coz his favourite song has now become mine too.

The feeling starts with pure admiration. He's the person I wanna become in my life. He meets my definition of success. The difference, is that he does not give me hope. I am not saying that you give me hope to begin with. He indirectly made me aware that my feeling should never rise above admiration. You see... I don't want to hurt myself again.

Dear FY,

Now that situation turns sour, honest be told... how should I face you? We have changed. My mind is decaying from my own solitude emotions.

I have lost bii. 

I have lost MS. 

Now I lose you too.

Forgotten? Prioritisation? I begin to know my place. Never in my life have I felt this lost. Obsession led me to think all the time. About you. When I woke up in the morning, when I went to sleep at night. And that went on for seven years.

I didn't like 2015. Hopefully the song will change the way I live. 

The video wraps my 2015:
1) Bii's visit
2) Chinese New Year with my mum
3) Melaka trip to satisfy my lust for food
4) My attempt to make churros
5) Bangkok trip to satisfy my lust for...
6) First house purchase
7) Birthday celebration in Starbucks Genting
8) Kampar and Ipoh trip to satisfy my lust for food...
9) Vancouver trip to meet you
10) Christmas gatherings

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year guys.

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This post does not require a title

Dear FY,

Here I am, at the place we both decided the best for us. Some where in my heart I wish to own the courage to challenge the impossible hurdle.

In the end I have failed every one.

Dear FY,

Nevertheless, thank you for the chance you had given. You deserve to be together with a better guy. I wish you would reply my messages more often. Rest more. Eat healthily. Stay young.

Love,

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He gives me a reason to watch

With just his voice, he is too good to distract me from playing my Tower of Saviors. The moment he sang, my finger stopped moving.

Naturally I locked my eyes on the television screen for few minutes and stared at this cute Chinese boy who sang a song I have not listened to for quite awhile.

I fell in love~

Have to watch the same video and listen the same voice every night to fall asleep...

Other contestants were good but he grabbed my heart away. Awaiting his next appearance.




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Happy New Year 2010

There are times one must learn to let go, even if you put a great show of reluctance. My eye lids will slowly slide shut and falling over from boredom if I post the draft I prepared earlier.

Going by the amount of words, I give up my draft and sinfully put aside to rewrite one shorter and sweeter.

To make it short, I wrote about my friends remain single. Even if they are attached, they won't last long. After they're through 3 months, tears are what last left for them. Why can't I find someone who is trustworthy, who is attached, who can at least share my happiness and sorrows when I need some shoulders to cry on or an ear to listen to? Most of the time I questioned myself, why am I so lucky to have a good lover when they have hard times looking for the right one? I admit I've been down occasionally as our relationship entered different phases, but I manage to brush aside the grievances and start over again. 'Coz I know in my heart, there is still you no matter how heartless I may be.

Hei I just habis gaduh with my bf.

Ya ya ya don't show off. I am single.

... Sorry to disturb.

Most men simply enjoy relationship more than singledom whether for the comfort, companionship, or the consistent orgasm. I understand that as much. Not only I never have the experience of being lonely, unable to find a lover, affair etc, I have never been dumped. They are right. I can never understand their feeling if I am a spoilt brat who enjoys happiness all time. All the time I did nothing but to listen and give pointless comments and reasoning. I can't help blaming myself when the barrier is strengthened and our gaps are widened. Maybe as a friend I can only do that much. My deepest apologies.

I am impressed I manage to stay in my relationship for so long. There could not be a possibly a better one than to wish for everyone's health, but what's health if you have no companionship? What's 100 years of life without happiness and love? What's eternity when you are lonely? Can't say I was looking forward to the day they meet their Mr. and Mrs. Right. And then make me jealous with their relationships and laugh over the sweet memories they had.

活到100岁

作词：林宇中

作曲：林宇中

Happy New Year 2010 and may my friends find their lovers at the soonest time. Appreciate what you have in hands and cherish the given moment before the end.

If I have the strength... Let not the song befall on us.

To Xiao Bai, Ricky, Kenji, Brian and Ryan, felicitaciones for your recent new found love.

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从来不做的事

除了他的歌，基本上我都没听过其他歌手的作品。
我躲在小小的世界，聆听他温柔的音乐，解散痛苦和烦恼。
真舒服。


但最近我失去了自己，同时间也迷失了他。
虽然我已经ok了，对他的感觉依然没复原。
不像以前那么疯狂去追星。
也没再追他演的剧了。


要完完全全忘记人生一些重要人物是无可能一天做到的事。
他怎么说都还是我第一偶像。


我手上拿着从妈妈钱包偷回来的50块。
在新专辑档口面前犹豫。
买，还是不买？
最后还是把钱塞回去妈妈钱包。
放弃海报和音乐会入门票。
他是星星而我是在河边捞星星的猴子。
知道自己能力有限，觉得好累哦。


没后悔没买他新专机。
应为以前那种feel还没回来。
那感觉会回来吗？
等待那feel才买也不太迟。
要用自己的能力追星才有满足感。

不出我所料。他声音和以前一样的动听。
谢谢你。


Ouch!我的华语丑到！








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The not-romantic kayu's 22nd

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October 12 2009
This isn't something that I could lie about. But do you know I always wish a quiet celebration, be it birthday or anniversary? Being one of the highlights in the crowd is not my style. I dislike the awkwardness being the main character while everyone is watching my movements. I don't like people looking at me.
Surprise isn't something I like for my day. Wouldn't you think a cake is sweeter if we bake it together? Don't you think the present can last longer if we wrap it together? The movie will never be any good without you. The point is, our experience enriches while we stay together. What's good if I only participate after the 4 seconds of surprise over the whole process? You get what I mean? To think that we can bake our cake or prepare our candle light dinner, shouldn't I involve to make it a celebration? Are you saying that a surprise is romantic while cooking together is not? Surprisingly, that's the concept I have about surprise. True, I never deny I am not romantic. If you like surprise so much, I will give you on your birthday XD.
Anyhow, surprise can be sweet, depending on who's the one I am dealing with.
My day started a normal routine. The morning is greeted by 林宇中's new song - 七天追到你, too good to brighten my day. Everyone knows I go crazy for him. Almost banged some cars from listening his song.
I reached uni sharp 10.12a.m. for some FYP works and then left for a hair cut.

Key chain from Greg. Ultraman is not part of present.

In Quick Cut, I requested for 林宇中's songs and I was so glad the lengzai Andrew who cut my hair, entertained my request.

Primary school boy hair

Stayed at his house for hours Facebook-ing and Bleach-ing, finally we left for TGI Friday and Surrogates in Pavilion. Not a big hoo haa bout the taste but the price is definitely a WOAH!!! Of 'coz it wasn't me paying the bill.

Jack Daniel's® Chicken & Shrimp

Jack Daniel's® Garlic Marinated Grilled Lamb Chop

I was so close to killing him when a bunch of TGI staffs together with the cake we baked earlier, appeared and sang me birthday song. Taken 250 damage from Hoof Stomp, I did not know where to hide my face. It's embarrassing yet in another corner of my heart I tasted the sweetness of his idea.

Homemade JE chocolate cheese cake

Surrogates - not bad. Doesn't mean very good.

We both knew TGI never serves portion that can stuff us enough. We had more supper in Pandan Indah and that marked the end of my birthday. I am more than glad that you make an effort to celebrate my birthday even though I am occupied with my FYP. Thank you very much. I had arguably the most meaningful birthday ever.

Normal pork ball me and Sarawak Kolo mee

A birthday necklace + card from none other

The next morning I woke up to find myself suffer major fever, flu, sneezing, coughing, headache, sore throat and backache. I doubt H1N1 but I rested at home for a day just in case.

And most importantly thanks to everyone who wished me on my birthday, be it Facebook messages, sms or calls:
Aderine Yap, Akmal Arshad, Alan Hor, Alice Chua, An Pei, Arvin Raj, Bee Ling, Cally Cheong, Carol Lai, Chang Hoong, Chiau Thong, Ching Yeng, Chu, Chun Kiat, Danny St James from LA, Denise Chin, Derick Liw, Dexter Loi, Edward Chin, Eugene Low, Gregory Wong, Hanson Wong, Jeff Chuah, Jeffrey Yap, Jennifer Ivy, Jia Hui, Jin Yu, Joelyn Pang, Johnsoon Thien, Justin Jia Jun, Kang Chien, Kar Pooi, Kenji from Vancouver, Kevin Yee, Kian Ti, KN, Koh, Kuhan, Kun Keat, Lam, Li Fah, Lik Wen, Lyon, Meng Zhen, Mohammad Nazreen, Mok, Muzani, Naqiuddin, Nicholas, Peter Wong, Phon, Piew, Pikey, RC, Ricky, Ronald Kumar, Ryan Mak, Ryan Syaoran, See Jeit, See Lok, Seng Khai, Seong Sym, Shawn Sim, Shee Lok, Shiau Li, Sia Soon Chit, Siau Chien, Simon, SK, Suet Yeng, Suzanne, Thiam Seng, Toch, Tsu Wern, Vincent Leong, Wai Kuan, Wai Yin, Wei Long, Wei Lun, Xiao Bai, Yen Ching, Yeow Poung, Yong, Zarif Jamil and Zaril Razak. Yin Koon, Chai Sing - edited and added 16 October 2009, Desmond - edited and added 20 October 2009

It's such a wonder that so many remember my birthday. Credits go to Facebook for sure. Sorry if I've missed out your name, I promise to put it here if I've missed any.

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5th Sem

First and foremost I would like to share this with you.

It didn't take UTAR long to publish our results in intranet. Well, last sem was the hardest among the four. The toughest part was the hectic exam schedule, so challenging that the students were unable to cope and recover from each paper for the next. To tell long story short, I invested mount of effort but never expect much on the outcome. Transient feelings of anxiety, nervous, dreadful and stress mixed. I was very positive before I clicked, I turned hopeless thereafter. If there's no miscalculation, I should be able to pass. But how beaut it'd be to pass made my balls shrink. Assume the worst situation, I miserably braced myself and call for Ultra blessing. Without major painful wait I checked the web for what I had least expected after 2 years of studying here. Huhuhu... Surprisingly it turned out that 4th sem contributes the highest GPA, CGPA is unexpectedly pulled up. Lucky I never shit my pants out. My friends achieved excellent results too. They were rewarded dearly for their efforts, unlike me. Hang on and move forward!

Following results was commencement of 5th sem. Changing experience of holidays spend-over was common among 'not-so-close' friends. Rather than attempt to spend plenty of saliva explaining here and there, close friends may always stay connected through msn. As we have always known and acknowledge, 1st day means to get off and get laid, 1st June which marked the 1st day of 5th sem was no different.

13 of the Biochem group 1 invaded Berjaya Times Square during their 7 hours interval of classes. Sze Koon, Seng Seng, Piew, Bui Bui, Chiau Thong, Siau Chien, Carol, Bee Ling, Shiau Li, Lok, Chang Hoong, Cally and me seperated into groups of votes, to watch 金钱帝国 in GSC, karaoke in Neway, and then together games in Ampang Superbowl, lunch in Old Town Kopitiam, Uncle Duck and McD. Wonderful uni life isn't it? We started spending on the very 1st day itself. How marvelous more can we be? The day walloped plenty penny but it wasn't a bad day. So much that we gained was the time spent together as friends, especially after the 3 weeks disappearance, the bonds were rebonding.

I did not watch the movie.

Neway has widen the varieties of 林宇中's artworks. Bravo 林宇中! 幸福马戏团 and 瓶盖 are now chipped in! And I have more to choose from ^^. Here comes the new version of 林宇中 by 林敬贤.

Final year has finally come. So is the project. But I am clueless of how to start. This sem's kind of weird to all of us. Classes are on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. While the rest are for resting, you presume? Will I have more time in painting? I personally think the remaining are allocated for projects, that makes more sense. Yet to find out.

1. Immunology - 4 credit hours
2. Projects - 3 credit hours
3. Proteins and Proteomics - 2 credit hours
4. Industrial Biochemistry - 3 credit hours
5. Enzymology II - 3 credit hours
6. Instrumental Methods and Analytical Biochemistry - 3 credit hours

A sudden change of lifestyle is extremely stressful. Isn't it hard to cope fresh environment when you're well adapted to piggie lifestyle? The reluctance to wake up for classes triumphs every morning. I need extended period to recover from my sloth.

Regarding car pork park, looks like I have to watch out for saman and walk to campus everyday. UTAR implemented a new parking sticker system by using computers to choose the eligible students for the limited lots. The balloting was unsuccessful, so said the computer. Only Piew was selected though. Congrat'z and he has to fetch me into campus ^^




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Don't worry this's not happening

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Harder than I thought

I couldn't remember how long ago, but it should be ~2 months ago since I left my armor lying on the cold marble floor. Kind of pity, 'coz armor hopes to jump out into action but the day never come lol...

It was ~ a month ago I last saw you. I thought you will be coming back soon but feel disappointed to miss the chance. We're both busy, where comes the time to drop by?

I hold your pic high in the sky, but I could only see you in dark behind the sun. When I hold it up at night, the moonlight does not overwhelm the dark. Memories tend to fade even with pictures.

Talk on the phone and we will burst into arguments. After lonely now showered with emptiness. Trying to be rational isn't playing significant role here. You made me feel so tired and feeble, cold and scared. Why do we always end up like that? Am I the one losing my tolerance?

Last time my inbox is easily fulled in just an hour. As time goes, my inbox never full anymore. Sometimes I call but not attended. Even if I manage to get through it doesn't last long. What's happening? You left me in question without clues of your whereabout. I started doubting you without a clear reason.

I am sick of this. It's not how I want it to be. Post effect of LDR?

Bleach Chapter 353 - The ash. Finally Hueco Mondo arc is coming to an end.

Na Na Na - 吴克群 & 王心凌. Very cute and nice song ^^.

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Melodious boost

This morning I woke up as early as 4 a.m. for my last minute study MB test II. How was the test? Not too sure if I can pass, though... Today is Qing Ming but I never like this day. I always love the smoke free environment, not the ritual and superstitious beliefs of praying. Forgive me I am atheist. How glad I was, MB spared me this year...

But on the way back home through MRR2, it was a massive traffic jam. Damn I hate strawberry. Why must there be strawberry on 10.38 a.m.? Najib rises to power and there's strawberry? I don't see the connection here. So when there's little motivation to continue the strawberry, feeling weak from early morning bell and massive energy loss from hitting aeroplane (oops...), I so wish to munch on an apple pie so I drop by McD.

Before I did that, I heard his voice on radio. One FM 88.1. It's long ago radio aired his arts - 远远. Melodies seeped through my veins, increasing adrenylate cyclase activity to convert more ATP to cAMP and... crap! I mean, I got all my energy suddenly. Immediate temporary energy boost. Arghh I want to sing!!!

So I saved RM 3 and continued the journey back home, to find out a little car accident caused whole MRR2 from Taman Kencana up to Tasik Selatan to congest. Why must everyone be so kepo? Saw car accident and slow down to busybody but offer no help? Damn busybody people - Malaysia's unique trait. Beh tahan this kind of people. After the accident the route was so smooth. Even smoother than my pet pet.

When I reached home I was totally exhausted. This time not even 林宇中 can keep me energetic. I need a good sleep. And I dozed to the pitch dark night.

I start listening to many songs, mostly chinese. 林宇中，王力宏，林宥嘉，杨宗纬，曹格，周杰伦 and many more. Now I start to accept 林俊杰，萧敬腾 and 吴克群 into my playlist. I mean all their songs. I don't reject nice songs, but I anti-陈亦讯，SHE, 陈小村, "Danell" Lee and few more I couldn't recall at the moment. Instead of 39 artworks of 林宇中，now my playlist has expanded to 184 of many songs including Chris Daughtry and Wiwisit.

Besides 林宇中，my favourites now are 原谅我，Blues, 多希望你存在，活着，收藏，疼爱，王子的新衣，海芋恋，我在哭，一辈子存在，奋不顾身 by 萧敬腾.

He is the rising pop singer from Taiwan. The super duper shy and silent 萧敬腾 was the PK King of 第二届超级星光大道 and gained the nickname 黑蜘蛛 for his talent and threat to the contestants.

From there his music career rose to fame so quickly. In the same year (June 16 2008) he released his first album of same name, 萧敬腾. To find out he is actually same age as me (March 30 1987), and he has his career blooming already. Where am I now?

He is much better than 林宥嘉 from whatever wise (except his look). Too bad I never know him earlier. It's not too late anyway. Greatly recommending him to my friends...

The young veteran 吴克群 has many albums on sale - Tomorrow (2002), 首长个人全创作专辑 (2004)，大顽家 (2005)，将军令 (2006) and 为你写诗 (2008). The latest 4 were all his own composed and written. Wonderful!!! Sexay!!!

周星星，男俑，蛤，学不会，大石头，什么东西，吴克群，牵牵牵手，老子说，将军令，冠军，为你写诗 by 吴克群 were hits last time. His songs are hilarious and special. I am still in progress to download other 萧敬腾 and 吴克群 songs. No money buy their albums lol so download all songs la. One of his hard core fans had moved to Johor, I couldn't ask for his help anymore. I wish one day I can buy their albums but too many of them!!! Anyway I am not too over fanatic over them like my interest over 林宇中...

Now I am searching for Bleach OST. Who can send to me?

I still remember how Melodi - 林宇中 and Sheila Majid brought me into music world. Music world doesn't mean to become a singer myself. His songs are really meaningful, his are the only that I really pay attention to, worth buying albums so far. But really thanks to him, now I really enjoy music very much and I am glad I stop restricting my quota in my playlist. No matter how many other singers I like, 林宇中 is still number 1 in my heart!!! Sounds so gay...

个人首长专辑 (2005 12月 30日)- 靠岸，不打烊的店，工体北，再见，落脚，灿烂部屋，寻找，我不是他，失恋学，叶枯过

淋雨中 (2007 3月 30日) - 苍蝇的泪滴，猫头鹰，复活，捉迷藏，旋律，对调，淋雨中，余兴节目，主题曲，空秋千，Melodi (OT 旋律)，讯号

大马演唱会先听版 (2007 11月 28日) - 十分颜色

干物女 (2008 7月 10日) - 上楼，干物女，远远，改嫁，瓶盖，维他命C我加你，放空，第六个地点，逆跳表，至少爱过，幸福马戏团，抢玫瑰，下楼

MY FM十周年主题曲 - 听见幸福

改旋律送给四川灾民 - 艳阳天

There are 2 songs I wish to get - Pleng ni (Thai Version of 旋律 by James and 林宇中) and Thai version 失恋学 by Tae and 林宇中. How can I get them?

My target after Langkawi. Save money for a SE W series phone! Despite my ears condition, I still want it!!!

Listen to songs, everyone. They're energy booster for your day!




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Mask

Since 9 years ago I started wearing mask.
No one clearly seen my true face behind my mask.
For 9 years I have been watching people from my mask.
And for 9 years I have been hiding behind this mask.

Why must I wear a mask?
You must ask the creator of the mask.
Of why I was born with this mask.
So I act along, to live behind the mask.

What is there to cover with this mask?
Something that you not understand without the mask.
I found my confidence and security from this mask.
But can I fool everyone, with just this mask?

When do I take off my mask?
When we are together, only then I will strip my mask.
"Who are 'we'?" asked you, who have no mask.
We, are people, like me, who wear masks.

Thank goodness my mum ripped off my mask.
Reveal the ugliness she least expected without my mask.
But she quickly learns the natural course of the mask.
Now I can walk freely at home, without my mask.

One wonders how further can I run with this mask?
It starts to shatter; I could no longer hide behind this mask.
Absolutely tired I become, wearing this mask.
Let's hope one day I am accepted as I, not just the mask.










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林宇中代表大马出征 - 芭堤雅国际音乐节

星洲日报娱乐版 - 2009年3月14日 （星期六）

东南亚最大音乐庆典
芭堤雅国际音乐节是庆典，每年都能吸引20万名观众，今年已踏入第八届，并由泰国旅游局主办，今年的音乐节将于3月20至22日在芭堤雅海边举行，这一次出席的歌手还包括了代表中国的金沙，香港的关智斌，台湾的唐禹哲，韩国的SHINEE和少年时代（Girls' Generation)，其他的国家还包括了日本，越南，澳洲和察国，当然少不了泰国的代表Chin, Golf & Mike等泰国当红歌手。

（吉隆城13日讯）继去年10月的韩国音乐节及中国国际音乐节之后，林宇中3月下旬将再次代表大马到泰国参加芭堤雅国际音乐节，与来自各国与他区的歌手交流，这是大马歌手首度参与这项年度音乐庆典；而让他兴奋的是，泰国歌手Tae将翻唱他的 《失恋学》，届时两人将在音乐节上以华语和泰语的穿插方式cross over演唱这首歌曲。

林宇中这次获当局相中，除了是因为他去年曾代表大马出席韩国及中国的国际音乐节，也因为他去年与泰国歌手James合作 《青苔》 和 《Pleng Ni》 ，让芭堤雅国际音乐节注意到这位大马歌手的音乐非常具有大马特色，因此今年才会兴起邀请他参加的念头。

林宇中上次到韩国参加音乐节时选唱了 《melodi》 ，展现了语言才华，也让韩国观众知道马来西亚多元化种族的特色。这一次他就选唱了很多中国特色的 《改嫁》 ，让泰国观众了解大妈华文文化和其他中华地区的分别。

问到他会不会因为常代表国家出去表演，期望下一届的旅游观光大使就是他，他开心的说，“是也不错呀！！可以为国家出一份力是我们应该做的。每一次出国演唱，都秉持着推广马来西亚为目的，希望不会丢国人的脸。


与Tae cross over合唱
林宇中这次将和泰国歌手Tae以华语和泰语的方式cross over合唱 《失恋学》 ，他自己对这次的合作充满期待。

其实他这次到泰国除了参加音乐节之外，也会提早3天到泰国出席Tae的发片发布会，当面感谢他翻唱 《失恋学》 。

林宇中表示，第一次听到Tae的泰文片 《失恋学》 是，惊讶于他的声音跟自己很像，就好像是他在唱泰文歌曲的感觉。另外因为泰文歌词是直接翻译他的中文歌词，加上Tae曾经在中国念书，所以很容易就把华人对感情的含蓄表达得很精准，所以林宇中要跟他同台演唱，还真的有一些压力。




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Another try, fall in love...

1st try on Spritzer Tinge Fruit Fusion when it was launched last year with Rynn Lim and Marsha Milan as new brand ambassadors. What happen to Daniel Lee? Who cares?

1st tried - bought at 7-11, RM 1.80. But to tell frankly, the taste really sucky. Till then I never bother to try Tinge anymore, no matter how supportive I am to Rynn.

Recently there're new packaging for Tinge with images of them. After seeing them, there're many designs just for 2 types of flavoured drinks. Marketing tactics, and it works perfectly on people like me. So I bought 2 bottles of different flavours.

Knowing the taste, I didn't bother to try them. I was thinking of keeping them unopened as collections (maybe will become limited edition?).

Mum thought they are some kind of mineral water, she opened one, and slightly gave a compliment.

Huh? APASAL U BUKAK? But nice ke? Cuba dulu...
Gulp... gulp... gulp...
Eii not bad wor... What is this? Lemon. Really not bad wor... Sweet sweet mildly, sour sour mildly. Flavour not too strong. Not bad ar...

Mum opened another bottle. As expected, sucks...

Conclusion: Spritzer Tinge lemon is nice and I like it ^^. But fruit fusion... too bad it sucks. Come on!!! Support RYNN!!!


瓶盖 - Tinge 广告主题曲

专属的瓶盖 为瓶口存在
相互的依赖 拥抱的默契是与生俱来
就像我们的爱 百分之百的合拍
咬合一切爱的不愉快

我们合起来 一个乖 一个有点坏
一个慢慢来 一个快 龟兔的竞赛
爱 像瓶口套瓶盖 互补的姿态
只要螺旋走在 通往爱 幸福的地带

我们合起来 护著爱 不受到伤害
等装满了爱 就打开 让一肚子的情海
甜蜜著我们每一个未来 永远做你唯一的瓶盖

瓶口套瓶盖 合起来 啦啦啦...




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

A movie that makes me cry, again

It took me hours to load in youtube. It's not available to watch anywhere online, at least after searching for an hour or so. Bitcommet does not show any progress so I ended up waiting for 17 short clips in youtube to load slowly. From 2 pm I waited till 6. Alas, the time has come, to watch the movie. I don't call myself a movie freak. I watch all types of movies. I am not selective like many people. If it's worth to watch, I will watch. If it's a nice movie, I will watch. I watch anything. Err... To be frank I don't watch chinese movies. Not too often. I mean movies here, not drama so don't confuse yourself. What movie was I waiting? รักแห่งสยาม. Cannot understand? It's Thai, read as Rak Haeng Sayam. In English we call it The Love of Siam. Hmm the trailer looks normal to me but the content does not surprise me at all. 'Coz I roughly knew what the story is all about.

The Love of Siam was in cinema worldwide in 2007 (not sure in Malaysia - didn't notice its existence till now). Director Chookiat Sakveerakul inserted romance love between 2 teenage boys screening in Thailand. This makes the movie so-called gay movie. So what if it's a gay movie? You have problem me watching gay movie? I will watch and rate it. If it's nice I will intro to those who can accept it. If it's not nice I will critic it and talk bad about the movie. You want to know which movie I hate the most, till now I still hate it? And felt that I have been cheated to pay 11 bucks for the movie? It's the chinese movie NARAKA 19!!! So everyone, if you have not watched Naraka 19, don't watch!!! I recommend you The Love of Siam which is 1000x better.

If you think gay movie is disgusting, you are wrong. This is not porn. There's no any explicit scene in the movie that is offensive, unless you are homophobia, that is. This is a movie well played by handsome actors and cute actresses Witwisit Hiranyawongkul (Mew), Mario Maurer (Tong), Kanya Rattanapetch (Ying) and Aticha Pongsilpipat (Donut). Really handsome and pretty, in my eyes. This movie is about love. I don't really know bout the dialogues, but the sub are really simple and easy to understand. Unlike most of the movies, The Love of Siam uses simple conversation when talking with each other, as normal people communicate. No metaphore, no inversion, no special words. Maybe it's just the sub. But the storyline itself is easy to understand even if there's no sub.

The story is about Donut loves Tong, Ying loves Mew, but Mew and Tong love each other. The story starts from childhood best friends, progressed to their teenhood. From friendship to love. The story progressed so slow, no background music, simple dialogues. Sounds so boring but I wasn't bored at all. There are a lot of good scenes, and the story somehow reflects the reality of love, even if it wasnt gay.

One of the few scenes I love the most is when Tong's mama asked Mew to leave her son after she has found out. I understand a mother's feeling of seeing her own son in a same sex relation. By confronting Mew she is trying to protect her son, as she wants Tong to live a normal life. Every mother wants the best out of their son, my mama is not excluded. Grow up happily, work hard, earn money, get married give birth to children and live happily ever after. An ideal dream of all mothers. But how many can achieve this? The only difference between gay and straight I could tell, is give birth part. There's no right or wrong in love. Don't discriminate love based on sex. I know my mama won't be happy if one day I tell her I am gay. No one will. Not even myself... When Tong is decorating the christmas tree with his mama, they talk heart to heart bout the problem. It's not easy for mother to say yes, but what a mother wants to see from her son, is to be happy. This is mother's love. If it's not soon, somehow, someday, mother will accept you for who you are 'coz they love you. It's no easy task but mothers are always understanding.

Mother : Tong can you help me put the ornaments (there are 2 patung kecil) on the tree?

Tong : Is this one good here, mom?

Mother : Just put it around.

Tong : What about this one here instead, mom?

Mother : Just put it on.

Tong : What about the two of these together here?

Mother : Just go ahead, ok?

Tong : What if I choose one and you don't like it? You'll be upset again.

Looking at each other for a moment...

Mother : Choose what you think is best for yourself.

'And they both smiled'

I like how the theme song is brought out into this movie. The lyrics may be simple, but I like it. The purpose, the meaning, and how the song is created. It's meaningful. Having strong feeling towards Tong, Mew wrote the song for Tong, a way to express his love. When he sings, he is looking and smiling only at Tong.



If I said that I wrote this song for you, would you believe me?
It might not be as well-written or beautiful as other songs
I want you to know that you can't write a love song if you're not in love
But for you, I can write this song so, easily
You might have heard hundreds or thousands of love songs
They might be meaningful, but their meanings are for anyone
When you listen to this song, it is written only for you
If you understand the meaning, our hearts will be together, forever

There are so many truths in love
In the past, I spent too much time looking for the meaning of it
But now I know that every time you are near
that if our lives are a melody, then you are the lyrics
that make my life meaningful and together we make beautiful music
Let it be the song. On the way with only your and my voice
That we'll be together for all time
Just like a verse that's in a poem "As long as you love, you still have hope"
Everytime I feel your love shining in my heart, I can see my destiny

Not to forget the last scene where Tong made his decision and also the christmas present.

I can't be with you as your boyfriend. But that doesn't mean that I don't love you.

They might not be together in the end, but their love existed. Their love might seem not normal in our eyes, but that is love. Their love might be stronger than any of ours. There is no right or wrong in love. I am not being supportive here, but they are not wrong. Why must love comes with hurt? I hate to see them cry when their love is rejected. Without realizing, tears rolled down my cheek as well. I admit I was touched by their acting. It's been a long time since I watch movie of such genre. The last one was Eternal Summer, which made me cry too. These 2 are still the best, I recommend all of you to watch as it really worth your time. I really had a hard time watching The Love of Siam.

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Oct 08 2008

今天呢突然间想起我的偶像林宇中. 28岁开始红起来的他已经发了总共3长专辑. 2005年12月30日发他第一长个人首长专辑，2007年3月30日发淋雨中直到2008年7月10日新专辑干物女. 从 myfm 听到合唱歌 Melodi 之后,就开始慢慢，一点一点对他的歌有好感. 从好感变成超喜欢. 我还记得我第一次去他的签唱会是去年. 觉得很开心. 我发梦都没想到我竟然会沉迷到这个地步. 真没想到... 为什么你这老家伙，年纪那么大了还有这样的魅力呢？真令我羡慕.

突然想起他的演唱会. 虽然第一次演唱会气氛有点冷淡，我认为呢还不错啦. 刚发片第二长专辑就有自己的演唱会. 其实还蛮不错啦. 感觉上就好像看电影. 黑暗暗又没有喊叫声. 全部都静静的坐着赏乐. 演唱会当中有两部分我蛮喜欢的. The beginning and also when Sheila duet with 林宇中 for Melodi. 我觉得气氛最 high 就是这时候. 很怀念当时那一刻...

多1分钟就是第9个月了. 还有机会拉拉手，拥抱你. 这9个月以来我有笑有泪. 解到你的电话让我好紧张噢. 多4天就是我生日. 希望是你陪我一起度过我的21岁. 人开始老了. 没有人会看上我一眼的啦. 除了你，我想不到还有谁可以代替你在我心中的地位. 虽然我曾经伤害过很多人的心. 也不算很多个啦. 但是我对你是认真的. 我对你忠心一片，你别当我痴鬼了线噢...




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Clean car - 03 Oct

Do you know how annoying is it to wake up early in the morning when I am having my holiday break? It's super dulan. If it's because of my alarm that wakes me up, I think it's fine. If it's because lunch time has come, I am fine too. But if it's because someone trampled on you while you snore to slumber, how can you not be annoyed? It's paranoid. I told you many times, becareful as I am not like you to have your own room, I am sleeping on the floor, so don't step on me!!!

Haiz what to do? Already woke up. This is the first time I woke up this early for this holiday. So far the earliest la. It's only 10 am wei! Ok lor, I wash my car. How long has it been since I said I want to wash my car? Hmm... I did mention after exam. So it was like a week passed and now I am going to wash my car. Wee~ paiseh paiseh. Walao so long never wash car since April. Huhuhu there's improvement of 6 months. Compared to last time? Wash car every Chinese New Year eve!!! I still remember the last time I washed my car, I was very angry. Play till late night and still don't want to go home. Do you know how worry I was? Don't you know how dangerous it is outside? But what's done is done. I am over it on that day itself. So why bother thinking back ^^ ?

My car is the 8 year old Iswara. Looks older than it supposingly is. Haiz... Seeing it makes me no mood to wash actually. Why do I want to wash my car? Because I beh tahan of the ants in my car. I don't know why there are ants. Not to forget cockroaches in my car! Walao who dare to travel in my car, anyone? How to pikat people with this car? So I have no choice but to wash and clean it. Very clean, clean or selamba clean, given it's cleaned. 1 hour had gone. After washing and drying the car, a bird shit dropped right in front of me. Really du kao lan!!! Kill kao you ar!!! Stupid birds have no other place to poo ar!!! Why always shit on my car!!! Brainless birds... I hate birds.

To change topic, I really wished to see 林宇中's mv for his new songs. The album available now has no mv in it. Is there another version (with mv) coming out? If my imagination is true, I have only cucumber to eat everyday. Probably less than a cucumber. Cd to buy, his concert, Genting trip. Money not enough 3...

These 2 are the only new songs that can be found in KTV so far. 干物女 and 远远. Worth listening and watching. Hope there are more songs in the list. Enjoy...








[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

少了 - 2moro

One of my friends introduced this mv to me. I found it quite interesting to note that the song is based on the gay relationship of the two actors in the video. I was attracted awhile, so I put it here...

我晓得 电话少了
问候少了 关心少了
见面少了 言语少了
不得不介意
过度的掩饰局面
会更怀疑
你电话里的 Do Re Mi
我想到 电话少了
问候少了 关心少了
见面少了 言语少了
可否问原因
过度的掩饰局面 会更怀疑
你相簿里的 Fantasy
我决定放弃
不爱你 免得我被迫失去
我决定珍惜 爱自己
才称的上勇气 多点想像
多点交会 恣意
我的直觉说着 别孩子气
你演技 傻的可以
到哪里去都不问结局

The lyrics and meaning are simply understandable. Enjoy ^^...

 

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Turbulent changes in time - 27 July '08

Time passes by just as I utter breathlessly in the struggle of life. Time passed by too quickly and me who is non-athletic form of human barely able to catch a breath. Why can't we stop the time from moving? Why can't we stop river from flowing?

Exams flooded into my schedules simultaneously, yet there's no motivation to study till the right time came. Microbiology, Management of Principles, Metabolism, Enzymology... I was lucky enough to pass my Management paper, but I can confirm that I will fail my Microbiology paper with shitty kitty bloody betty colour. Metabolism and Enzymology are in the stable condition till further notice. My midterm 1 passed just like that, and the next Midterm 2 will drop by very soon. Real soon. I feel suffocated. I need more time. I have 2 damn big panda eyes already. Instead of sleeping 10 pm, I start to have habit to sleep at 1 or 2 am. Doing revision is very stressful, especially when you are a dilettante. Is this the uni life that was supposed to be relaxing and enjoyable? Why do I feel even harder compared to form 6? It's as if I fell into a swamp and need help from anyone who passes by to pull me out. Early this sem I told myself, I told my friends, I told them I won't borrow or copy anyone's lab report. But gradually, I start borrowing and "use it as references" at dire times (when the deadline is near). The 'GOD' reminded me when we were chatting in library. He looked at me unsatisfied, but yes he was right. I broke my own promise, basicly relying too much on friends. I rely too much on him. From now on, I will depend on myself and not the 'GOD'. Maybe just a little... We must learn to release stress, whether it's studies stress or it is family pressure or relation conflicts. I enjoy the time we hang around in BTS, Sg Wang, Midvalley, Pavilion or even JJ in Wangsa Maju. Thanks.

UTAR life has changed me a lot. Now my computer can surf net for info rather than just chatting in msn and download movies. I learn to pool and bowl once awhile. I learn to talk crap. All these, thanks to my friends. I proudly present The Pneumonia Gang (废 gang) aka Single Club. Members: miao - kRazy pieW, kek - Im NooB K3K, sk - Im NooBlet louis, and bui bui - Ray Tan). In unison, we fight for each other in many battlefields, such as copy reports, fake signatures in attendance list, study partners, play mates and etc. At least, I think I have found my 靠岸... which will guide me for another 2 years through. Few years back I was bound to ego and image (if I have any) that must be uphold while dark shadows tailed me from the back. Now I have released myself from the cage and start to realize how beautiful outside world can be. I start smiling and laughing, acting and moving like a sotong, talk very loud and shamelessly. My true self has shocked many friends. However behind my smile is still a mask that even I cannot recognise. I do not try to hide it, it's just hidden. It is the unpresentable ugly side of me. The 10 years mask was well hidden and there will never be a right time to destroy it. I remember Jekyll and Hyde...

Biochem Year 2 Sem 1 Group 1 celebrated a lot of his coursemates birthday. We celebrated Siau Chien's birthday on 12 June, Shiau Li's on 30th June and Carol's on July 08. We are planning for See Lok's celebration on 30 July at karaoke and steamboat. Wish them all the best.

林宇中 new album 干物世界 was released 10th July but I only manage to grab it on 16th. That was the day (16 July) 林宥嘉 came to Sg Wang too. So we (Piew, Shiau Li, Kelvin and me) watched the performance together while Sze Koon and bui bui went somewhere else. I started listening to other artists such as 林宥嘉 and 杨宗纬 thanks to Piew my buddy (check out Krazy pieW in my friends list). I cannot deny 杨宗纬 is a good singer, very talented and lucky performer but 林宥嘉 is a bit off. Lari music and broken voice during the performance that day was not tolerable. Listening to the very same songs by 林宇中 for many years, I think it's time for me to change a bit and accept new changes. Maybe I shouldn't keep myself being exposed, maybe I need more input. I am in the middle of un-conservative-ing myself. I am afraid of new thing. New things mean new faces, new environment, need more effort to adapt. But all these are needed for turbulent changes and I know I can do it. I have made my 1st step and there will be another step to the road not taken. Few years back music is very disturbing pollution thanks to Linkin Park. Now I found a new essence to my life which was music. 林宇中 as the energy and motivation source while 杨宗纬 is the filler...

Since I had kept myself long enough from exposure, I think 林宇中 new album would be very suitable. But after listen properly to all songs, I was quite disappointed. "Quite". Only few songs that I like, while other songs are so so. The album consisting of 13 tracks:
01. 上楼 (just tune only)
02. 干物女*
03. 远远*
04. 改嫁*
05. 瓶盖*
06. 维他命C我加你*
07. 放空 (just tune only)
08. 第六个地点*
09. 逆跳表
10. 至少爱过*
11. 幸福马戏团*
12. 抢玫瑰 (featured JJ)
13. 下楼 (just tune only)

The songs with * sign are the only few that I like. There might be changes as the previous songs such as 不打烊的店 and 猫头鹰. Am I expecting too much from a 30 year old guy? Is this his limit? I believe he can do better in future and I am anticipating his 签唱会 in KL. I might fall in love with other songs when he perform live just as 不打烊的店 and 猫头鹰. This is music, nothing is certain. Everyone has different taste but my senses are more complicated. Now he is running several events in Perak. I just hope he doesn't come to KL when my finals hit the clock.

As of 16th July, my rose bloomed a rose. Of 'coz a rose plant blooms out a rose, but I mean... Yeah there is a flower in the rose pot!!! I cut the flower previously on 26 May and now 16 July it blooms another new one. My 1st flower!!! That's not all. 27 July, there are 5 more little flower buds ready to bloom. This is another great success for me. I can sell them when Valentine's around the corner earning a penny or two. Or as Kek suggested, I can give it to someone I love? But definitely not Pei Zhi or package G. I will keep the rose stay healthy and grow. In the future if I fail to become Biochemist, at least I can start selling flowers.

My last hair cut was on 5th May. After 3 months of wearing "helmet" (means thick hair), I had my hair cut at Genting Klang Silver Cut after Enzymology midterm. The bad point is he took such a long time to cut making me almost fell asleep. But the good point is he cut my hair and I think it's quite nice compared to previous cut. But another bad point is, he didn't teach me how to style my hair. But a good point is I think it is quite cheap considering RM 15 compared to my previous RM 13 QQ CuT. I need professional Sze Koon and bui bui to teach me how to wax my hair. Now that I have a new look, je ne sais quoi attitude (my true behaviour), friends, all I need now is not much of luck to succeed. As Robert Falcon Scott said, "To Strive, To Seek, To Find but Not To Yield". FKL lion patrol's motto : Spirit is Success.

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot