Wednesday, May 16, 2018

Changes

I always believe the only constant in this world is change. Over these years while I had 'disappeared', I have changed in many ways.

1. Alias
I have stopped introducing myself as Jino. Instead, I am back to my own name.

"Hi, my name is Jinq. How's it going?"

Any reason for this? Nothing particular. Do you agree my name is kinda cool?

2. Health
In a blink of an eye, I have joined the 30s club last year. There's nothing to proud of. I have failed in many things in life. I continue to be a disappointment to people around me. Somehow, warning signs of midlife crisis have become so apparent now I look like in my late 50.

More white hair than my usual black silky hair.
Backache is so often I groan in pain.
Low sex drive to a point my bf complains so much.
Loss in appetite.
Yet I put on so much weight.
My belly is so big it almost blocks me from seeing my dick.
Easily fatigue just by staying idle.
Constant breathing difficulty and chest pain.
Suffered my first migraine last year and it has become more frequent.

I know I am stress at work and I haven't worked out recently. I want to start swimming but I can't swim.

3. Social media
If you haven't seen any feed in your Facebook about me, that is because I had removed everyone from my Facebook friend list. Oh, that was a drastic move I did over my bf's insecurity in our relationship. The same goes to my contact numbers on my phone. There are only a handful of numbers in my Whatsapp. I still keep my Instagram for photos though.

On a brighter note, now I have more time playing mobile phone games.

4. Career
I have thought about moving up the career ladder for several years now. And so the opportunity is here. My manager asks me to go for it.

Should I just do what I am doing to get 5 figures pay? Or should I work harder and set my expectation higher? Or should I simply resign and move to other roles of lesser stress?

I am contemplating.

5. Togetherness
I miss the days I watched movies in cinema alone. I could apply half day leave from work and enjoy a sinful waffle in the cafe. Or just a random trip to overseas, anywhere, alone.

Those were the days. Now that he is around, this is never possible. Ever.

There are times I really want to be alone. This bit hasn't changed in me.

6. Friends
When was the last I met my friends? Probably twice in two years. Why is this so?

Mainly because he wants to tag along all the time yet his free time is so limited.

Trust me, he was extremely upset when I went out without him.




[Jinq]

Sunday, July 30, 2017

Feel helpless

I am considering Uber driver for my side income in line to maintain my luxurious life and owning the house. 

Maybe working 3 jobs is too much for him to accept. I have commitment. I have debts to pay. I don't have a dad to pay me few thousands every month. My dad does not pay my car or house.

When it comes to money, I am alone. 

It would be helpful to keep quiet if you are not helping in this dire time.

Thanks.


[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Catching up with friends

I feel guilty to prioritise my entire time on work and love, I neglected what I call friends. Most of the time I get their updates from Instagram but nothing more. And that day I felt the excitement to meet my friend and speak more about ourselves. 

I really love the waffles in Shugatori and I will try his pancakes. Despite a busy guy, he took his time off the kitchen to catch up with me. Gonna start promoting his cafe and make him busier.



I guess I really like meeting people.



[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Sunday, June 25, 2017

HPBD

Countdown in hotel with homemade cheese cake

 The usual slurpy chicken rice

 He prayed at Malaysia's oldest Chinese temple

The usual lovely cendol and laksa

The usual Nyonya dishes for lunch

 Enjoyed MYR 8 each ticket with Visa Checkout

 The usual Portuguese dishes for dinner 

 The usual crunchy popiah and overly sweet Nyonya dumpling

Random 

 More dumplings but this time was not the usual encounter

And a complimentary ride included in HPBD package


[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

To make a living

4) Work
Firstly, they dropped us a New Year present - we were not getting any salary increment. BOO!

A month later, we got our salary increment. Yay~ 
I have to admit that I got the fattest pay this year.

Then they announced that we were all gonna lose our jobs. Shit...

While everyone was busy looking for new jobs... after many had resigned... they withdrew the decision. We got to keep our jobs.

Now, nothing surprises me anymore.

After these fiasco, I could not decide if staying is a right choice. I didn't doubt the group's direction or decision. My career is marred by static progress. It has not been very satisfying for doing the same job for 7 years. I wanna get promoted. I wanna do something different. I don't like to be a people manager. I do not have leadership qualities by nature.

When I was about to give up my job, an opportunity knocked on my door.

You are going to Australia for a month to help out on a project.

I gladly accepted it. I was sure there were people who were happy and envious of my opportunity. My role would change for at least half a year. I am now involved in project instead of managing people. 

Have I mentioned I love sightseeing? 

While my career seemed brighter and more promising, there was only one man who opposed me from going Australia.

And that man was none other than Kizzai.

He was the sole antagonist in this dramatic play. I could imagine his frustration and we were very close to ending our relationship simply because of the large difference in our stands. Don't get me wrong. I love him. But opportunities don't knock twice. I was not ready to compromise this time and I was ready to go through this without his blessing and support.. 

Eventually, he watched me left. He must have realised how stubborn I can be. Fortunately, we didn't break up and I was grateful.

The project was far from completion. Towards the end of my stay in Australia, he dropped by and we enjoyed ourselves. Back in KL, I have a good staff who is able to perform better than me. It is a good chance for her career progression. Hence, I am now relieved from managing a team and focus on the project. I am not gonna complain for at least a few good months.

My Australia pictures are posted here.




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot