The few instances recently where the idea to end our relationship continue to haunt. It's not once or twice in a year. Rather, it's three or four times in a month that have wearied me. Perhaps my tolerance has deteriorated below the threshold. Or perhaps I don't feel the appreciation that I deserve. The relationship, no matter how I look at it, doesn't look as healthy and glorious as it used to.
Often I lost myself into negativity.
I am tired.
Should I let go?
Walking together for this long isn't an easy journey. Having said that, I still cherish the rare moments of joy and the constant incoherent argument throughout the love. No matter how hurt it is, a life without you is a life wasted. Without you, I will lose many goals in my life. I am never complete. To give my 4 years of investment another chance, I just have to smile, hold back the tears and pretend everything's okay.
Being a full time lover is so tiring and now I can't stop yelling for off days. Never in my life I request for a break. For once I strongly believe that I deserve some rest to ease my mind (as if the love is torturing me), I humbly submit to you my application for annual leave. A quick trip (without you) will be great.
1) Sun tanning - Pangkor
2) Mount climbing - Kinabalu
May I? Without you?
I already know your answer before asking.
Application declined. Reason: I have to tag along.
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[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot
Take a break during your off day. Lazy on bed or go somewhere you wanna go. Watch your favorite anime...
ReplyDeleteStay strong~
Hang On Jino.....you had been with him for 4 years,so can be with him longer...don't break now...hang on on this 2/3 months first and see how...
ReplyDeletetwink-le twink-le little star? lol
ReplyDeleteLeng cai, when u free? Jom lepak...
ReplyDeleteyou are not alone ^^
ReplyDeleteu look so thin
ReplyDeletesasuke: that's what i intend to do, if i have the chance.
ReplyDeleteahmad: decision has been made ^^
tuls: picture removed due to bad response lol
ichi: ada free time pun jadi tak free...
orange: every time i ask you come my house, you decline >.<
ooi: yes i am.
[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot
Hey~ perhaps u should take a break, but not breaking off the relationship. sometimes, we may be fed up, lost, or tired. but please dun take the four years for granted. as u have write this post, means u still care, y dun u get it a try later after a short rest.
ReplyDeletejay: to be a bf is a permanent 24/7 job. you don't get to rest till you die haha.
ReplyDelete[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot
Hey Jino, just curious to ask. Do you still miss him sometime? :P
ReplyDeleteThis ex? Honestly not anymore. It has been 4 years since we broke up, Ed. Chances given and tears shed. I had done what i could but obviously a relationship will not turn out well if WE dont work it out, together. Moreover he has a good bf now, so i am less worried.
DeleteOn another note, I am surprised you are here, in 2011 posts.
[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot