Take my shirt off please~

Dear FY,

You may have not seen it, but I have grown at least 2 kg heavier than we last met. To make things worse the mass was mostly fat and more fat!!!

It was difficult to decide on finance or good body, as I am bad with both.

My brain was not thinking so the dick took over. My intention is to look presentable in your eyes. Nothing else.

Dear FY,

After the session yesterday my arms were so sore I could hardly lift them up. It's 9 a.m.. If I did not make haste I would be late for bus to work. So I asked a stranger a favour.

Me: Can you please take my shirt off please?

Stranger: ???!!!

No sexual fantasy, FY. I was seriously desperate to take my shower and I could not have done it without a helping hand. I am sorry FY.

From, 

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Post updated with LittleS

It is better to be late...

... than never.

Dear FY,

I am late to send him this. Happy anniversary my friend.

Just like you, he is one of the few I really wanted to protect so badly. He should not give up 'coz I will not let him go.

Do you still remember our first moment, FY? I hope you still do.

From,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Post updated with LittleS

If I were to die tomorrow...

If I were to die tomorrow, what is one thing you would always remember about me?

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

His big day does not start well

Dear FY,

I am sure you are not asleep at this hour. You are not replying my texts again. It does not matter. Somehow I  know you only reply either in wee morning or in the darkest night.

You know what?

Today is his day. The day should start with bak kut teh at 8 a.m.. I had a nice scolding from him for not waking him up. Well, I overslept too... He is throwing his tantrum and refuse to do anything.

If I knew this would happen, I could have hit the gym first. The morning is not productive, FY. I feel so guilty.

He invited a bunch of friends for dinner tonight and he expected me to organize it this morning. Hello? He knows where he wanna eat. He has the head count. I know nothing about his plan 'coz he did not discuss with me. I may not have a good itinerary. And I certainly did not expect 10 people joining us. It is fine that he has his thought but I think it is too late? Now that the restaurant is full tonight, he is not happy. Is he trying to blame me for being incompetent?

Dear FY,

I am confident the story does not stop here. Hugs.

From,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Post updated with LittleS

For You, FY

The blog first started with my rant in school and dissatisfaction with certain parties. If you still remember what Friendster was, you can probably recall the blog and its signature comment spamming. Facebook replaced the once popular Friendster and I stopped spamming comments. I redirected the blog over here anyway. Whew~ so long ago.

Not knowing that blog is actually a public viewing site, I wrote a long thought and did not expect any one to come across my story. Obviously the next morning people asked if I need help or if I am ok etc.

Moving forward I posted my blog with general public as target. I want the readers to know exactly how I feel and what I have gone through.

Oh~ the time has changed.

This time my target reader is only you. For You (FY). Not Fuck You ok?

Why the change?

'Coz you are the person I really wish to read my thoughts. I hope one day if I were to have amnesia you will be here to tell the tales of my past.

Dear FY

I do not want to  exagerate my feeling to you. I did not miss you as much as I claim. Honest be told we hardly speak to each other 'coz you are a busy man. Our difference set us so distanced I can hardly feel you. Most of the time you were irresponsive to my texts and I almost gave up.

What I have left from you are pictures and memories in the form of words I posted somewhere in this blog.

Till last night... you really surprised me.

Do you think you wanna finish off where we left off before?

I thought you have forgotten. I thought that moment was so dark you do not want to remember. Certainly this is not what I expect to hear but you really made my night.

Dear FY

I am not sure if you still come to this site. Seriously, I have no clue. It does not matter though. 'Coz I already know...

... that I am someone to you.

Can't wait to see you again.

From,

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Post updated with LittleS

Strangers off a gay man's phone

[Prestige of the Pantheon] is a big scam. Confidently I reloaded 90 diamonds and Madhead rewarded me with shit cards.

With disheartened heart we wondered in Night Market and stopped at one of the stalls. Our eyes were locked on the variety of choices; short but strong, long and convenient, medium and durable. Well they do not make much difference to me so I chose the cheapest one.

Do you have your phone?

Yes I do.

Bring your phone over. I will show you that the charger cable is working.

Handed over the phone. 

It was too late to stop him.

The black screen the phone was activated and... I guess he was stunned with the wallpaper.

The guy in the phone is kinda cute. Agree?




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot