Sunday, September 7, 2008

少了 - 2moro

One of my friends introduced this mv to me. I found it quite interesting to note that the song is based on the gay relationship of the two actors in the video. I was attracted awhile, so I put it here...


我晓得 电话少了
问候少了 关心少了
见面少了 言语少了
不得不介意
过度的掩饰局面
会更怀疑
你电话里的 Do Re Mi
我想到 电话少了
问候少了 关心少了
见面少了 言语少了
可否问原因
过度的掩饰局面 会更怀疑
你相簿里的 Fantasy
我决定放弃
不爱你 免得我被迫失去
我决定珍惜 爱自己
才称的上勇气 多点想像
多点交会 恣意
我的直觉说着 别孩子气
你演技 傻的可以
到哪里去都不问结局

The lyrics and meaning are simply understandable. Enjoy ^^...

 

[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

八个月的幸福日子

认识你那么多年,终于有机会更清楚了解你. 我还记得我们的第一次约会. 你迟到. 可是你的笑容和开朗的心态让我很安心.

刚开始和你一起,我犹豫,我有做错选择吗? 应该还是不应该?后来我明白了. 对错不重要. 主要对方珍惜大家,那不就够吗?

这八个月我有笑有哭. 笑时候有你听到我的欢笑. 哭时候也有你的陪伴,让我感到真幸福. 不觉得孤单和寂寞了. 觉得我的存在还有一点意义. 多一个人关心我,真好. 一起度过人生考验是我这一辈子的荣幸. 我相信我们会有更永久的将来. 我是真心,全心全意对待你的. 谢谢你一直以来的关怀. 谢谢你当时没放弃我. 没你就没我,有你就有我. 谢谢你带来的美好回忆. 你送给我的饼,我们一起吃好吗?

谢谢你的一切.




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Turbulent changes in time - 27 July '08

Time passes by just as I utter breathlessly in the struggle of life. Time passed by too quickly and me who is non-athletic form of human barely able to catch a breath. Why can't we stop the time from moving? Why can't we stop river from flowing?

Exams flooded into my schedules simultaneously, yet there's no motivation to study till the right time came. Microbiology, Management of Principles, Metabolism, Enzymology... I was lucky enough to pass my Management paper, but I can confirm that I will fail my Microbiology paper with shitty kitty bloody betty colour. Metabolism and Enzymology are in the stable condition till further notice. My midterm 1 passed just like that, and the next Midterm 2 will drop by very soon. Real soon. I feel suffocated. I need more time. I have 2 damn big panda eyes already. Instead of sleeping 10 pm, I start to have habit to sleep at 1 or 2 am. Doing revision is very stressful, especially when you are a dilettante. Is this the uni life that was supposed to be relaxing and enjoyable? Why do I feel even harder compared to form 6? It's as if I fell into a swamp and need help from anyone who passes by to pull me out. Early this sem I told myself, I told my friends, I told them I won't borrow or copy anyone's lab report. But gradually, I start borrowing and "use it as references" at dire times (when the deadline is near). The 'GOD' reminded me when we were chatting in library. He looked at me unsatisfied, but yes he was right. I broke my own promise, basicly relying too much on friends. I rely too much on him. From now on, I will depend on myself and not the 'GOD'. Maybe just a little... We must learn to release stress, whether it's studies stress or it is family pressure or relation conflicts. I enjoy the time we hang around in BTS, Sg Wang, Midvalley, Pavilion or even JJ in Wangsa Maju. Thanks.

UTAR life has changed me a lot. Now my computer can surf net for info rather than just chatting in msn and download movies. I learn to pool and bowl once awhile. I learn to talk crap. All these, thanks to my friends. I proudly present The Pneumonia Gang (废 gang) aka Single Club. Members: miao - kRazy pieW, kek - Im NooB K3K, sk - Im NooBlet louis, and bui bui - Ray Tan). In unison, we fight for each other in many battlefields, such as copy reports, fake signatures in attendance list, study partners, play mates and etc. At least, I think I have found my 靠岸... which will guide me for another 2 years through. Few years back I was bound to ego and image (if I have any) that must be uphold while dark shadows tailed me from the back. Now I have released myself from the cage and start to realize how beautiful outside world can be. I start smiling and laughing, acting and moving like a sotong, talk very loud and shamelessly. My true self has shocked many friends. However behind my smile is still a mask that even I cannot recognise. I do not try to hide it, it's just hidden. It is the unpresentable ugly side of me. The 10 years mask was well hidden and there will never be a right time to destroy it. I remember Jekyll and Hyde...

Biochem Year 2 Sem 1 Group 1 celebrated a lot of his coursemates birthday. We celebrated Siau Chien's birthday on 12 June, Shiau Li's on 30th June and Carol's on July 08. We are planning for See Lok's celebration on 30 July at karaoke and steamboat. Wish them all the best.

林宇中 new album 干物世界 was released 10th July but I only manage to grab it on 16th. That was the day (16 July) 林宥嘉 came to Sg Wang too. So we (Piew, Shiau Li, Kelvin and me) watched the performance together while Sze Koon and bui bui went somewhere else. I started listening to other artists such as 林宥嘉 and 杨宗纬 thanks to Piew my buddy (check out Krazy pieW in my friends list). I cannot deny 杨宗纬 is a good singer, very talented and lucky performer but 林宥嘉 is a bit off. Lari music and broken voice during the performance that day was not tolerable. Listening to the very same songs by 林宇中 for many years, I think it's time for me to change a bit and accept new changes. Maybe I shouldn't keep myself being exposed, maybe I need more input. I am in the middle of un-conservative-ing myself. I am afraid of new thing. New things mean new faces, new environment, need more effort to adapt. But all these are needed for turbulent changes and I know I can do it. I have made my 1st step and there will be another step to the road not taken. Few years back music is very disturbing pollution thanks to Linkin Park. Now I found a new essence to my life which was music. 林宇中 as the energy and motivation source while 杨宗纬 is the filler...

Since I had kept myself long enough from exposure, I think 林宇中 new album would be very suitable. But after listen properly to all songs, I was quite disappointed. "Quite". Only few songs that I like, while other songs are so so. The album consisting of 13 tracks:
01. 上楼 (just tune only)
02. 干物女*
03. 远远*
04. 改嫁*
05. 瓶盖*
06. 维他命C我加你*
07. 放空 (just tune only)
08. 第六个地点*
09. 逆跳表
10. 至少爱过*
11. 幸福马戏团*
12. 抢玫瑰 (featured JJ)
13. 下楼 (just tune only)

The songs with * sign are the only few that I like. There might be changes as the previous songs such as 不打烊的店 and 猫头鹰. Am I expecting too much from a 30 year old guy? Is this his limit? I believe he can do better in future and I am anticipating his 签唱会 in KL. I might fall in love with other songs when he perform live just as 不打烊的店 and 猫头鹰. This is music, nothing is certain. Everyone has different taste but my senses are more complicated. Now he is running several events in Perak. I just hope he doesn't come to KL when my finals hit the clock.

As of 16th July, my rose bloomed a rose. Of 'coz a rose plant blooms out a rose, but I mean... Yeah there is a flower in the rose pot!!! I cut the flower previously on 26 May and now 16 July it blooms another new one. My 1st flower!!! That's not all. 27 July, there are 5 more little flower buds ready to bloom. This is another great success for me. I can sell them when Valentine's around the corner earning a penny or two. Or as Kek suggested, I can give it to someone I love? But definitely not Pei Zhi or package G. I will keep the rose stay healthy and grow. In the future if I fail to become Biochemist, at least I can start selling flowers.

My last hair cut was on 5th May. After 3 months of wearing "helmet" (means thick hair), I had my hair cut at Genting Klang Silver Cut after Enzymology midterm. The bad point is he took such a long time to cut making me almost fell asleep. But the good point is he cut my hair and I think it's quite nice compared to previous cut. But another bad point is, he didn't teach me how to style my hair. But a good point is I think it is quite cheap considering RM 15 compared to my previous RM 13 QQ CuT. I need professional Sze Koon and bui bui to teach me how to wax my hair. Now that I have a new look, je ne sais quoi attitude (my true behaviour), friends, all I need now is not much of luck to succeed. As Robert Falcon Scott said, "To Strive, To Seek, To Find but Not To Yield". FKL lion patrol's motto : Spirit is Success.








[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Hectic, busy, pathetic but joyful, care-free lifestyle with higher aims - 15 June 2008

The last day of my holiday season ended on last 25th of May. Which means my new sem started on 26th May. I am now officially a Year 2 Sem 1 Biochem student. 1st year passed very quickly. Last sem my GPA was 2.8000 while my CGPA has increased to 2.7142. At least it's increasing. This sem I am taking 5 subjects in total. Or rather as Ben said, 5 papers. Microbiology, is a killing paper. Above 70% of the students failed last sem. Can you imagine how does this paper will kill me next? Principles of Nutrition is also a killing paper. We study RDAs, AIs, ULs, EARs, AMDRs, EERs rather than vitamins, minerals or food nutrients. The next paper is Metabolism 1. The lecturer's way of teaching is the worst I have ever seen. Imagine I have to use camera to snap pics as she is not giving notes to us, and yet we have to study so many machines and the theories working on it. But a good point about her is that she was baby's coursemate. Besides that, Management Principles is suicidal. The lecturer and tutor is 2 different people. The lecture is bored as hell 'coz I don't understand a thing. To be more precise, her words cannot enter my ear. However, the tutorial is the only time i enjoyed the most. The tutor is a funny guy. Enzymology 1 is the only subject that I can understand. It's about enzyme protein. I had been studying for the last 2 years haha. So I guess this is the only subject to score this year?

The schedule for this sem is a very head spinner. The time itself is laughable. From 9 am to 6 pm on Monday with 4 hours in between, I have too much time to spend. But when I drive back home after class, I will reach home only at 9 pm due to the strawberry. On Tuesday from 10 am to 7.30 pm. Yes, 7.30 pm. No joke 7.30 pm. With 3 hours break in between. By the time I reach home, it will be 9 pm (if there's no rain/ accident/ strawberry). Wed is a bit relaxing. 9 am to 2 pm. No complain. But the next on Thursday is 9.30 am to 7.30 pm with 2 hours break. Yes again 7.30 pm. Haiz... On Friday is from 9 am to 4 pm. Sometimes after Tuesday and Thursday class, I will offer some girls for a ride back home. Err actually they ask for my favour. 'Coz its dangerous to take bus back home, especially when there's no one else in the bus. UTAR is totally brainless 'coz they can approve such schedule as if they are meant to torture us little children. On Friday I drop some of my friends at lrt after school 'coz they want to go back hometown.

So far this sem has 2 assignments. Management Principles and Principles of Nutrition. But I had completed my part in Management Principles. Now left only Principles of Nutrition which I have no idea how to start yet. Practical reports are not as hell as the last 2 sems. 'Coz we are required to submit mostly short reports. This sem I am going to break my record in my whole life. I will buy a book called Microbiology for my studies. This is the most expensive book I have ever bought, RM 83.

I do not consider all this as disaster (yet). The real disaster is yet to come in finals. I treat them as challenges. Life is more interesting when there are challenges. Although sleep very early at night, but waking up early in the morning is hard. Tiredness in the morning + boring subjects = Bedtime. But there are a few people that I need to thank. 1st is Grace. She gave me a poster in 1 morning. It's none other than baby's poster. It's a real surprise 'coz I never expect something nice to happen in the morning. The next is Shiau Li. She gave me a few of baby's brochure on 29th May morning. Very unexpected as well. 'Coz I have never seen it yet. She took 3 copies for me from KLCC Sony Center. So I too took at least 10 copies from Midvalley Sony Center when I attend U6BF gathering last 4th June. The last person to thank is Piew!!! He took 3 copies of baby's some sort of magazine from Sg Wang. 8 pages magazine where 7 of them are baby's pages. So thankful Piew took for me 'coz when I went to Sg Wang today I couldn't find it.



This sem although does not start with good things, but I am motivated as day passes by. I am getting used to the hectic shedule, and I am no more a blur guy. This sem I will definitely do better than previous sems (although it's practically not logical, but I will make it happen).

Recently there was a gathering for my class as well. U6BF 2005/2006 is famous for close friendships, the noisiest class in the whole form 6in VI. That day I met few of my classmates that seldom attend gatherings. Si Toh, Justina, Yee... Really miss them. We had our gathering in Midvalley Chili's on 4th June. 18 people attended the gathering and Chili's was so noisy like pasar malam. Thx to the contribution of all of us [Wai Yin, Fiona, Laushu, Kian Ti, Ben, Li-shia (not classmate), Li Ling, Len Yi, Yee, Phon, Phakai, Vincent, Wai Loon, Ching Yeng, Si Toh, Justina, and me]. OH SORRY I HAVE FORGOTTEN CHU CHUN HONG!!! HE WENT BACK EARLY SO I HAVE FORGOTTEN HIM HEHE - added and edited 20th June 2008 It ended very late. And it's a silly day for me too. The next day is the increase of petrol price to RM 2.70. But I only fill RM 10 'coz I don't know bout the increase.



On 12th June, Biochem Group 1 celebrated Siau Chien's 21st birthday. We had a mini party in UTAR cafeteria during break time. We bought her a Cheeze Chocolate Cake from Secret Recipe. Don't ask me why this cake. But it's a nice cake. At least I think it's nice. I wonder how many people will remember my birthday? I know I have forgotten Kah Loong's, and yet I have not wished him yet. Haha...



Rynn my baby is going to release his new album very soon. Nowadays MY fm always play its theme song 听见辛副 and baby's new song 干物女. I am waiting for 10 July, the date of his new album 干物世界 launching. Today is the presale of his new album. Those who make booking will get his poster and a diary. So I planned to go with someone, but none wants to wait with me from 12 pm till the event starts. So Kelvin accompanied me after his work at 2 pm. I waited alone till the time comes. There was an auction for Sze Chuan victims before my baby's event. So I stayed there to watch. It was very shocking to see those people doing charity. A girl student can offer RM 800 for Farenheit poster, while a guy can offer RM 1500 for SHE's handmade wrist chain. Are they nuts? They are not doing charity. They are chasing fames. I cannot understand how youngsters think. They are filthy rich.

When the booth for baby opened, I was the 3rd to purchase the album haha. I am proud of myself. There are free stickers as well. Then he sang his new song 干物女 and sign all the posters. He even signed my previous 2 albums haha... But after the album, all I can eat for the whole month is cucumber and sand. I am totally broke. But it's definitely worth it, and 1 of my dreams came through again this year...



Many people had been asking me the same question recently. "Jino, have you moved?" I must shamefully answer, "NO". I think the renovation progress since then is 0. If you treat me as friends, don't mention this thing in front of me anymore. Thank you very much.

Life now is up and down. There's no guarantee what will happen next. I need to make myself busy to hide my sorrowness. I pity those in Sze Chuan 'coz I am more lucky than them. I cry when I heard the news. So many people died innocently yet so many useless people still living in this world. I might be one of the useless type, but I am changing. I want to become Ultraman, strong enough to survive in this world... I am ULTRAMAN. HI YEAK!!!




[Jino] - A man's not a man unless he knows how to shoot

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

05 May 2008 - Glimpse of My Sem Break

Now it’s my turn to be free. 03 May ’08, 1600 pm. After my last paper UESE1204 Structural Biochemistry, I felt so light. It’s as if something was lifted away, as if I can fly. But I never jump from the building. ‘Coz there’s no need to. I hope I can pass all the papers with grade B and above. My Maths and Chemistry were like hell. I don’t think there’s anything to think bout the past but hope for the best to come.

After the last paper, I had a thought of doing a list of what to do during the sem break. I had a lot in my mind, but I wonder how many things can I accomplished in just a week? Let’s just try and see…

a) Clear up the messy room
b) Go to Cameron Highlands (7th May)
c) Buy cactus (rose) from Cameron Highlands
d) Celebrate suzanne's birthday on 17th May
e) Collect my camera charger in Midvalley (4th June)
f) Complete baby’s drama download (20th June)
g) Apply Celcom Postpaid
h) Return all Form 6 Chemistry books to Chu (I think Form 6 books were useful compared to those recommended by lecturer)
i) Return all Form 6 Maths Kasturi notes to Khor Kah Loong
j) Buy Hitsugaya miniature
k) Reformat my computer
l) Pay bill for next sem

There’re only 10 of them. I think it shouldn’t be a problem for me right? Just as a ‘spoiler’, I will be using Celcom in the future. But 016 will be remained as well. And I want to plant a cactus too. I hope it blooms flower rather than drooping to the ground. "LIFE is MEANINGLESS if we hv lost our DIRECTION..." – Kah Loong. That’s why I try to put everything into a piece, and making me easier to decide what to do than wasting time thinking…




[Jino] – A man’s not a man unless he knows how to shoot